shining and since october 2011
Right now.
Right now I am crying my eyes out, because I have failed myself.
I have completely and utterly ruined my chances of being what I am meant to be.
I have ruined my already shitty life.
And you know what? I am going to change it.
I’m going to clean up my mess, start over and do it right.
I am fed fucking up of being such a disappointment.
And I want to be able to be proud of myself, an I want my future husband to be proud of me, and my future kids to be proud of me.
And I want my mum to love me like she used to.
